Childhood summers were an adventure from sunup till sundown.
With a lake as our back yard…
floating was only a somersault into the water away.
However most morning there was a moment upon waking when the realization that mom had already left for work and there would most likely be a list of chores lying in wait, eagerly ready to infringe upon the hurley burly good time I had waiting for me out on the water.
Mom, was and most likely still is a list maker (Mom, if you are working through today’s I am delighted that the blog made it on there. Love you much) This trait of organization was very benefiting to her success as a business woman, mother, leader in the community and within her circle of influence. She is one of the most accomplished, self-assured people I know and while I admire all of her qualities, even emulating many, list making was a trait that I rejected with all my being.
I even recall having a “no listing making” pact with my younger sister. Which I am pretty sure she broke when her life took a turn towards craziville about 20 years ago…while finishing college, interning in her career, and working a full-time job. For this infraction to our pact, she is forgiven.
Yet even with the pact broken, list making still eluded me. It has just always felt so contrived. Listing out all the things needed, jobs to be done, items to be sought, pieces to be bought, articles to pack, objects to be carted… dang, just making that short list of just a few things we list, was wearing.
Now I can appreciate that list making can help life run smoother. For it is a real stinker to get to the store and have no idea what in the heck those yummy mix of spices are that will be needed to make the Tandoori chicken you have a hankering for. And I certainly see value in how making a list can help pin point down that which is most needed and important.
within a list where is the space for that which we don’t know we need, want, or desire. That which we can’t see. That which is beyond our present knowledge. If we are so focused on the items written down do we over look the white daisy sitting casually in the corner on our way to get the cucumbers for tonight’s salad?
Is there space within a list for spontaneity to rise up and surprise us? Is there an ability with in our must-do to flow with what is presented in a single moment on any given day?
When I asked my friend, confidant, guru to help shine a light in an area that I am getting mindful about, he suggested that I…
make a list.
All I could was shake my head and sigh. Deeply.
Valuing his perspective I begrudgingly began the task of listing out that which will help me on my path of purpose.
It was while making this very list that I once again dealt with my list making rejection. For I know all that I want to focus on. However it is that which I don’t know, can’t currently see, comprehend or fully seek within my own power that I wish to discover.
Putting down the pen, closing my journal I scooted off to yoga.
Where my teacher, friend and (another) valued guru read a passage from a book written by Neale Donald Walsch, Conversations with God…
“There is only one purpose for all of life, and that is for you and all that lives to experience fullest glory.
Everything else you say, think, or do is attendant to that function. There is nothing else for your soul to do and nothing else your soul wants to do.
The wonder of this purpose is that it is never-ending. An ending is a limitation, and God’s purpose is without such a boundary. Should there come a moment in which you experience yourself in your fullest glory, you will in that instant imagine an ever greater glory to fulfill. The more you are, the more you become, and the more you become, the more you can yet be.
The deepest secret is that life is not a process of discovery, but a process of creation.
You are not discovering yourself, but creating yourself anew. Seek, therefore, not to find out who you are but discover who you want to be.”
So today’s “list” is simply to experience fullest glory and find the days purpose in that.
Well that and coriander, cumin, turmeric, cayenne and paprika in order to fulfill my Tandoori chicken hankerins.